A Place , a face, a way to make the pain go away.
Just for a minute, an hour, a day.
Desperate shelter, an oasis in a sea of despair.
A false sense of security, a light at the end of nothing.
Desperate to share, hoping this time you care.
Wondering what there is to hold on to.
Hoping to gain the strength to make it there.
Shelter from a life, that beats you down.
Breathing, wishing for a moment of peace.
Hoping that the one moment of happiness will never cease.
Wednesday, November 7, 2007
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
From here I go on....
I have tried to be what I would consider a good person all of my life. I haven't broken all of the commandments, I've given my last dollar to a stranger, and attempted to be the best parent that I can, and yet I seem to be constantly beaten down by circumstance, and the actions of others.
At one time I thought this must be some sort of "Wrath of God" type of thing, because I felt like I was being punished for something maybe my soul had done in a previous life and I was just getting the divine repercussions now in this lifetime, even though I am not privy to the crime. However I am not really convinced that anyone is listening. That would explain all of the unanswered prayers, and lack of concern.
Then I come to my other thought or belief if you will. I've always felt, or maybe it was the way I was raised that there could be Karmic retribution: the ideology of what comes around, goes around. But to my knowledge I have never been rewarded for any good deeds that I may have done. So what does that leave?
Human companionship, someone who will be an ally, someone who will be a loyal friend, or someone to love you and make it all seem worth it. Sounds like a another myth to me, and I have evidence to prove it.
And yet I still go on, I still love, and I still do good deeds, and bad and I still look for my ally, my friend, someone to answer my prayers............Because I still believe in"Maybe someday".
I have tried to be what I would consider a good person all of my life. I haven't broken all of the commandments, I've given my last dollar to a stranger, and attempted to be the best parent that I can, and yet I seem to be constantly beaten down by circumstance, and the actions of others.
At one time I thought this must be some sort of "Wrath of God" type of thing, because I felt like I was being punished for something maybe my soul had done in a previous life and I was just getting the divine repercussions now in this lifetime, even though I am not privy to the crime. However I am not really convinced that anyone is listening. That would explain all of the unanswered prayers, and lack of concern.
Then I come to my other thought or belief if you will. I've always felt, or maybe it was the way I was raised that there could be Karmic retribution: the ideology of what comes around, goes around. But to my knowledge I have never been rewarded for any good deeds that I may have done. So what does that leave?
Human companionship, someone who will be an ally, someone who will be a loyal friend, or someone to love you and make it all seem worth it. Sounds like a another myth to me, and I have evidence to prove it.
And yet I still go on, I still love, and I still do good deeds, and bad and I still look for my ally, my friend, someone to answer my prayers............Because I still believe in"Maybe someday".
Wednesday, August 1, 2007
If one day you find that I have gone...
Grieve for the person no one could ever see..
Grieve for my children, and the things that I can never be..
Rejoice in the sorrow lifted..
Rejoice that the burden has shifted...
Don't grieve for my sins, for from here there is nothing...
Don't grieve for those close, for they were unwilling...
Rejoice I am there.
Grieve for the person no one could ever see..
Grieve for my children, and the things that I can never be..
Rejoice in the sorrow lifted..
Rejoice that the burden has shifted...
Don't grieve for my sins, for from here there is nothing...
Don't grieve for those close, for they were unwilling...
Rejoice I am there.
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